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This is the moment, anxiety has taken over me |
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to the point where I feel nothing |
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oh, I hope this doesn't hurt |
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and god if you're really there please just make it fast |
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and please do not judge me if I've walked a different path |
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and if my brother is next to you tell him I'm on my way |
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I hope he knows I think about him almost every day |
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and grandpa died when I was young, I didn't know him well |
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but I would like to see him one last time before I go to hell |
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because I'm not sure where I'll go, my vision is just a blur |
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and mom I'm sorry I failed you but don't bury me in the earth |
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just burn me in a box and scatter my ashes at sea |
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so I may know what it feels like to finally be at peace |
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because I'll have this body no more, all I'll have have left are memories |
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of growing up, and growing old, and falling in love (oh god, my love!) |
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everything goes from black to white as I'm floating towards the sky |
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so this is what it feels like |
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this is what it feels like to die |
