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My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast |
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Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past |
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The last mistake, the choice I made |
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Staring in the mirror with myself to blame |
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Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside |
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Nowhere to hide inside my mind |
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I'm scared that you'll compare and |
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I'll look a lifetime past repair |
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I second guess myself to death, |
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I re-solicit every step |
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What if my words are meaningless? |
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What if my heart's misleading this? |
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I try to capture every moment as it comes to me |
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Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company |
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When the hope of morning starts to fade in me |
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I don't dare let darkness have its way with me |
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And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight |
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I will not be giving in tonight |
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When I'm old and grey, or thirty, |
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or whatever happens first, |
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I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse |
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Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself |
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Like never let you get a word in, |
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while I dissect my mental health |
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Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track |
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I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac |
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Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves |
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Trade up made up epidemics, |
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pass around prescription pills |
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But my disorder can't be cured |
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by a bottle, blade, or dose |
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Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close |
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But I don't wanna let you see that, |
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I don't want my friends to know |
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Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go |
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When the hope of morning starts to fade in me |
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I don't dare let darkness have its way with me |
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And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight |
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I will not be giving in tonight |
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Try as I might to keep it together |
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Why is recovery taking forever |
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Fool the whole world, just until I get better |
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I'm terrified I'll be faking forever |
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On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head |
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I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did |
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All the pain I can't explain away won't fade |
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All the the secrets silenced by the shame |
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Don't make me say it |
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Don't make me say it |
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When the hope of morning starts to fade in me |
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I don't dare let darkness have its way with me |
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And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight |
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I will not be giving in tonight |
