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I keep losing sleep on couches and floors |
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Because I hate laying in this bed |
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Wishing for so much more |
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Than the growing pain that formed in my chest and my head |
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But expected nothing less |
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Than a few reassuring words |
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And the sound of bitter resentment in your voice |
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Knowing I couldn't do anything more for us |
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Because it was always your choice. |
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It was always your choice |
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And this is the second time |
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You came into my life |
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Wanting to build something from the ground up |
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After knocking down my walls |
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And in an expected turn of events |
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You left me out in the open |
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As if i didn't matter to you at all. |
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And now I just want to feel the air in my lungs again |
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And the heart beating in my chest |
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But that was taken the moment |
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You drove back down south |
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To your home near the beach with |
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A view almost as beautiful as you. |
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And in the 3 seconds between |
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You letting go of that last kiss |
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And us saying our goodbyes |
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I was ready to believe it would be the last time I'd ever held you. |
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And I was right. |
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And I heard you felt so sorry |
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But you never told me specifically |
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And all I could use now is an apology |
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But you're too busy lost in his sheets |
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And what was so wrong with me |
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That I couldn't get you to stay |
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You filled me with joy |
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And I cherished that every day |
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At least I was able to tell you goodbye this time |
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Remember when you promised me that there would never be a last time? |
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Well where are you now cause I need you here by my side |
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I guess everything I wanted to believe so terribly bad was just a lie |
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And everything thing you said |
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That used to make me feel alive |
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Just makes me feel dead |
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I just want to see one of us happy |
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I know youre happier than me |
