[00:11.520]I was 16  when the bell
[00:14.020]on the phone rings
[00:15.140]It's my homie from church  an ex dope fiend
[00:17.940]A little older  wore his
[00:19.500]heart on his shoulder
[00:20.810]A hiphop head so we
[00:22.500]connected on the totem
[00:23.620]Back then I'd kick verses
[00:25.180]and he'd be on the scrotum
[00:26.810]I wish he were around to
[00:28.300]hear these verses that I wrote Him
[00:29.990]Just to clear the air
[00:31.170]confusion and misquotings
[00:32.430]A good kid with black
[00:33.980]clouds following his motions
[00:35.540]Like hear ye hear ye
[00:37.540]but they don't hear me
[00:38.910]The headline I've read for
[00:40.470]the tenth time  its eerie
[00:41.970]three dead  including
[00:43.160]Sunday school teacher
[00:44.410]An ex dope fiend
[00:45.920]turned extroverted church leader
[00:47.970]Is this realmy hairs
[00:49.230]raised suddenly
[00:50.670]I'm drowning in emotion
[00:52.040]while shivers swim subtly
[00:53.420]I read on
[00:54.850]an affair that ends tragic
[00:56.660]Teachers pleads for life
[00:58.060]down the barrel of a magnum
[00:59.930]Then point blank shot
[01:01.110]dead together with his lover
[01:02.490]Before the lovers husband
[01:03.800]took his own life from him
[01:05.540]My eyes turned red
[01:06.660]welled up a watered gaze
[01:08.490]From hurt  fear  and let
[01:10.600]down in lots of ways
[01:11.850]God  Why would you
[01:13.470]allow this if you save
[01:14.710]When evil lurked within
[01:15.830]why did my homie disobey
[01:17.460]We got one life  is it ok to be afraid
[01:20.450]At least we got that option
[01:22.130]stomping through this maze
[01:24.830]Its ok to be afraid  many
[01:26.590]don't have that option  that's
[01:28.490]So we mourn today
[01:29.800]
[01:33.040]Here one day  then gone away
[01:39.220]
[01:39.850]things will never be the same
[01:43.780]
[01:59.540]I remember her
[02:00.290]soft skin and her caress
[02:02.290]The mistakes that I made
[02:04.220]and her grace
[02:05.840]when I confessed
[02:07.090]Like politics me
[02:08.340]and her it was complex
[02:09.900]But all the stains
[02:10.840]would wash away
[02:11.650]each time our minds
[02:12.640]Connect
[02:13.270]We had history
[02:14.270]old school like a cassette
[02:15.270]Together we opened doors
[02:16.200]explored  she knew me best
[02:17.950]I imagined us forever  ever  ever
[02:19.630]But now I wish I never met her
[02:22.570]Why won't this feeling letup
[02:24.000]I can't forget her
[02:25.250]staring at our empty bed
[02:26.620]The silence is screaming at me
[02:28.810]so I stay awake instead
[02:30.120]And in the sheets  there's
[02:31.430]rooms for extra legs
[02:32.990]On my phone no SMS
[02:34.230]missed calls  or messages
[02:35.930]From tying the knot
[02:37.600]o farewell goodbyes and
[02:39.410]My stomach twisted up in
[02:41.040]knots like Bear Grylls tied them
[02:43.160]The start and end  it comes full sphere
[02:45.220]From the cradle to the grave
[02:46.720]I wish you were here
[02:48.210]Here one day  t
[02:50.520]hen gone away
[02:51.830]
[02:53.210]things will never be the same
[02:57.450]
[03:11.490]It's been a little while
[03:12.990]since I seen your face
[03:14.990]getting kinda hard to move on
[03:17.280]But the pain is motivation
[03:18.910]
[03:19.560]though its frustrating you
[03:21.180]don't know what you have until it's gone
[03:24.740]It's been a little while
[03:25.980]since I seen your face
[03:27.180]getting kinda hard to move on
[03:29.050]But the pain is motivation
[03:31.160]though its frustrating you
[03:32.650]don't know what you have until it's gone
[03:35.960]
[03:38.640]then gone away
[03:40.250]
[03:41.010]then gone away
[03:44.770]
[03:46.010]then gone away