[00:00.98]And that was a dark depressing time for him, you know
[00:03.55]He did had one visit with his mother I think
[00:06.55]During the time that he lived with me and she brought
[00:09.92]Him a huge box fill with gifts you know clothes and all
[00:14.73]Kinds of little goodies and stuff and it sat in the corner
[00:17.86]Untouched, literally for months he'd never opened anything just
[00:21.73]Left the box there
[00:24.05]-
[00:41.49]What's going on in your mind when someone you haven't seen
[00:43.55]since you were nine is out at your door step right now?
[00:45.55]Rewind, remember that one time when Marco showed up at the front door
[00:48.86]And we found out he escaped from a psych ward
[00:50.80]And stole grandma's car?
[00:51.80]Ah, rest her soul
[00:53.11]I know that's off topic, but I miss her soul
[00:55.17]So ironic that she was blind but told me I'm handsome I was
[00:57.80]Every time that I walked in the door
[00:59.30]Can't lie and say it was easy being 14 on February 14th
[01:02.11]Watching a body die in my arms
[01:03.92]Then have to go to a school that I hated
[01:05.67]When my grade indicate that I don't give a **** what's going on
[01:07.86]A couple hours later on
[01:09.05]And not to mention that one bitch that I loved
[01:11.36]By the way I call her "bitch" because she was
[01:13.24]Wanted me to catch another man ****ing her
[01:15.49]Invited me over, told me to come into the front
[01:17.11]Come upstairs and say what's up
[01:18.17]And there she was
[01:18.92]Little slut
[01:19.61]I was broken hearted, should've broke that bitch's jaw
[01:21.86]Just for playin' me like a chump
[01:22.80]But instead went to the garage, grabbed one
[01:24.36]Of her brother's rifles, went outside, and shot that other
[01:26.24]Motha****a's truck up
[01:27.11]I guess that's what lead me to cuffs
[01:29.55]Becomin' common in my life like funerals was
[01:31.74]Daddy's less common now, he gave up
[01:33.05]After he heard the judge pin a ****ing felony on his son
[01:36.11]Funny enough
[01:36.99]Me and Aunt Barbara even closer
[01:38.74]Start to feel some weight lift off her shoulder
[01:40.80]Till it piled back on when a radiologist told her
[01:43.11]That she had breast cancer and might not live much longer
[01:45.30]Fast forward
[01:46.17]The woman that I call my "mother" isn't my mother
[01:47.92]Or even blood but that's how much I love her
[01:49.92]And I'm feeling awkward cause the doorbell's from the person that I call HER
[01:52.49]Maybe I ain't ready for it...
[01:53.92]Shit, what should I wear?
[01:57.11]**** that, I ain't going down there
[01:58.74]I waited over a decade for closure
[02:00.36]Why should I receive it if it might not be something I want to hear
[02:03.36]In the mirror is a empty reflection
[02:05.17]And in my head are questions I want to ask like, "Where the **** did you go?"
[02:08.61]Why did you turn my birthdays to the worst days every year that you didn't show?
[02:12.49]And if you must know, I didn't turn out to be much else
[02:15.61]Than a drunk who fell face first to a pile of hell
[02:17.41]Took four snuffs of the devil's dust
[02:18.78]Ended up with my manager helping me cause I couldn't take a piss by myself
[02:21.97]But I did get a record deal
[02:23.34]And all my records got that making of a legend feel
[02:25.78]And I did have a daughter who I promised that the way that way you made me felt
[02:29.16]Is a way she will never, feel
[02:30.59]Slip a Benadryl in my cup
[02:32.16]Ech, **** it I'm sickening up
[02:33.53]Pit of my stomach clenching, all my muscles stiffening up
[02:35.66]I ain't been this nervous since I got jumped
[02:37.84]Flick the tip of my J over a surface cover with ashes and junk
[02:40.34]Took a pull and sat it down
[02:41.84]Put on both of my Chucks
[02:42.66]Reach for the door but my hand's sweaty, I'm anxious as ****
[02:44.84]Couldn't even hit the stairs without remembering how many years I was there waiting to see your car pull up
[02:50.67]Now you saying she's right there?
[02:52.48]Man you saying she's right there?
[02:54.61]You telling me if I open up this door right here
[02:56.42]That she'll been standing right there?
[02:58.55]And after all these years am I wrong for having this fear
[03:02.80]Of meeting the reflection that was missing in the mirror
[03:05.08]Open up the door and then I see her