can I hold on to you?
 can I crumble and weep?
 can I peel at the varnish?
 be ugly and cheap?
 
 say come
 never said it
 but I'll say it again
 
 if I wait by the rails
 will I hear you go by?
 will you serve me my meals
 when I'm buried alive?
 
 don't know where to begin
 don't know how to explain
 point the finger and fire it at me
 I'll surrender again