[00:00.000] 作词 : Aaron Davis/Anthony Bamgboye/Thomas Broderick
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Aaron Davis/Anthony Bamgboye/Thomas Broderick
[00:13.220]24 hours in the same place
[00:15.061]Told 'em I need me a vaca'
[00:16.510]I never get 'round to the vaca'
[00:18.046]Bank statements making me lazy
[00:19.799]Every day payday
[00:21.581]I stopped eating meat in '18 still I got a full plate
[00:24.880]Ya never know when a beef can go off
[00:26.630]I didn't wanna show off but when you're the first in
[00:28.459]I need their hearts to beat when they see me in person
[00:31.965]How is it a 50/50 if I need reimbursing?
[00:35.004]They can't drink from my table if they're not putting the work in
[00:37.728]She was at home in bed, I'm busy flirting
[00:39.464]Weekends, I've got the weekdays merging, I swear
[00:43.023]I'm just tryna keep waves in my hair, I
[00:45.607]Wanna make 'em record or hold their torch in the air, why?
[00:49.095]'Cause I feel alive when it all lights up
[00:50.922]Let my enemies know that I don't give a ****
[00:52.544]When I swore to myself that I'd never look down when I first climbed
[00:55.277]I've done well for an ex gang member
[00:57.746]And I've done bits and bobs
[00:59.109]Just like what Montana done to Rebenga
[01:01.350]I'm one of the last ones standing
[01:02.906]Everyone's dead or in jail now
[01:04.662]And I've got trauma that creeps up on me
[01:06.468]That I try not to remember
[01:08.373]I was born in December, five days before Christmas day
[01:11.009]Haunted by the ghost of the Christmas past
[01:12.724]Didn't wanna blind him so I kept my wrist tilted this way
[01:16.587]I'm not afraid to drop to my knees and pray
[01:19.879]'Cause I never thought that I'd overcome this pain
[01:22.221]I was born in December, five days before Christmas day
[01:24.778]Haunted by the ghost of the Christmas past
[01:26.453]Didn't wanna blind him so I kept my wrist tilted this way
[01:30.090]I'm not afraid to drop to my knees and pray
[01:33.623]'Cause I never thought that I'd overcome this pain
[01:35.818]Yo
[01:36.318]I've been studying psychology
[01:37.242]'Cause I didn't wanna go see a psychiatrist
[01:39.325]Thank God she accepted my apology
[01:40.842]'Cause I don't even think I could do none of this
[01:42.669]From day one, she proven herself
[01:44.525]Back when I couldn't get shoes off the shelf
[01:46.108]Back when I couldn't even get into the club
[01:47.718]Didn't pop bottles, never have Louis on my belt
[01:49.726]I'm ready to make a commitment
[01:51.179]I've got trainers coming on a shipment
[01:52.760]I've got an M in one account and an M that I put into the crib, are you listening?
[01:56.144]Me and these rappers are different 'cause most of these rappers chat fiction
[01:59.619]Me, I'm just telling a story, the type that will go down in history
[02:03.228]This is December I told 'em I needed a choir
[02:06.658]Plus I'm thinking out loud so I'm gonna need quiet
[02:09.437]I hope that I made 'em proud but I bet they deny it
[02:13.576]I been practicing patience, let me apply it
[02:16.655]I haven't been posting, I've not been replying
[02:19.924]There's a lot of moving parts so I needed some time
[02:23.675]I already believe, I don't need a sign
[02:27.395]I already know the reason I shine
[02:30.411]Was looking for symptoms online
[02:32.211]Emotional instability, impulsive behaviour
[02:34.925]Rage, sorrow, borderline personality
[02:37.355]It's a disorder but it's important
[02:39.283]'Cause without that I just blend in
[02:40.825]I'm just brave enough to say it out loud, I'm not unpretending
[02:44.160]When I was on road, they say I was mad
[02:45.938]And that was cuckoo, he had to be bad
[02:47.645]Now that I'm famous, I've had to change the way that I think
[02:50.169]And the way that I act
[02:51.110]Emotionally switched off, I'm only just fixing it now
[02:55.294]I've gotta thank my girl for sticking around and holding me up
[02:58.788]'Cause I coulda drowned and never again will I let her down
[03:01.211]Responsibility comes with a crown and that's why I always frown
[03:04.775]It was my job to build a bridge all the way from the North over to the South
[03:08.176]And when they take shots I watch it bounce off my body armour
[03:11.491]I'm Marcus Aurelius, Julius Caesar, used to suffer with sieges
[03:15.044]I guess everyone's vulnerable, it's what you do with the struggle though
[03:18.407]Can't believe I've got trainers in JD but I used to be criminal
[03:21.723]29 years in December but this one is a miracle
[03:26.792]I've done well for an ex gang member
[03:28.613]And I've done bits and bobs
[03:29.985]Just like what Montana done to Rebenga
[03:32.042]I'm one of the last ones standing
[03:33.776]Everyone's dead or in jail now
[03:35.403]And I've got trauma that creeps up on me
[03:37.318]That I try not to remember
[03:39.002]I was born in December, five days before Christmas day
[03:41.776]Haunted by the ghost of the Christmas past
[03:43.577]Didn't wanna blind him so I kept my wrist tilted this way
[03:47.477]I'm not afraid to drop to my knees and pray
[03:50.661]'Cause I never thought that I'd overcome this pain
[03:53.090]I was born in December, five days before Christmas day
[03:55.513]Haunted by the ghost of the Christmas past
[03:57.208]Didn't wanna blind him so I kept my wrist tilted this way
[04:01.128]I'm not afraid to drop to my knees and pray
[04:04.385]'Cause I never thought that I'd overcome this pain