Axenstar - Blackout Far From Heaven (2003) by Lilith7 What would you say if I threw it all away The life that I lead could it be more surreal Searching in my mind in the order to find some sense of reality I fear that I am beginning to lose what's left of my sanity Awake again full of bloodstains on my hands I wonder where I have been whose death I have foreseen Breaking my will with the purpose to kill all shreds of humanity To lose the control of body and soul is my main anxiety Something's coming over me my reality slowly slipping away I just can't remember but can't seem to forget Who I am blacked out again Can't longer say what is real and what is a dream The demon is rising up from far deep down within Searching in my mind in the order to find some sense of reality I fear that I am beginning to lose what's left of my sanity Something's coming over me my reality slowly slipping away I just can't remember but can't seem to forget Who I am blacked out again I have fallen into the depths of sin Where the humanity ends and pain begins Breaking free from this torment I must do If I told you my secret, oh would you believe it's true Something's coming over me my reality slowly slipping away I just can't remember but can't seem to forget Who I am blacked out again