Shut out  pimpled and angry
I quietly tied all my guts into knots
Gave up on trying to make them
I figured it'd take them too long to look up and besides
It was undeniably clear to me i don't know why
When every other part of life seemed locked behind shutters
I knew what worthless dregs we've always been
Lucked out and found my favorite records
Lying in wait at the birmingham mall
The songs that i heard
The occasional book
Were the only fun i ever took
And i got on with making myself
The trick is just making yourself
But when they're parking their cars on your chest
You've still got a view of the summer sky
To make it hurt twice when your restless body
Caves to its whims
And suddenly struggles to take flight
Three thousand miles north east
I left all my friends at the morning bus stop shaking their heads
"what kind of life you dream of  you're allergic to love "
Yes i know but i must say in my own defense
It's been undeniably dear to me  i don't know why
When every other part of life seemed locked behind shutters
I knew the worthless dregs we are
The selfless  loving saints we are
The melting  sliding dice we've always been