作曲 : Manuel Joseph Walker I still feel apprehensive To go on with the way I live I always forget the person I really am I always forget I'm a person outside my head But I can't really kill myself yet It's ****ed up that I would even consider it I just live with all this apprehension Others know I'll always have my compassion And that's sad I'm worth more than that To be thinking constantly To be worrying, of everything Even the thoughts that bother me And what that says 'bout me as a person I always try my best not to question it Why the **** do I have to question it? When I clearly don't even **** with that? . I don't want to make my mom cry I don't want to make my grandma cry I don't want to make the homies cry I don't want to make my brother cry I don't want to make my sisters cry I don't want to make my nephew cry I don't want to make myself cry I don't want to make my girlfriend cry