[00:02.06]Ohh~!
[00:03.75]This is my life...This is my life
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[00:17.95]Yo...
[00:19.44]I always knew I was different even back at six
[00:21.74]They tied me to a pole with a rope and wrapped my wrists
[00:24.35]They punched me and kicked me and slapped me with sticks
[00:26.78]In the ribs and the kids called my daddy a bitch
[00:29.01]Said my father's a faggot, it aggravated my dealings
[00:31.52]I didn't know no better but knew I hated the feelin
[00:33.93]From laughin at me whenever they would crack jokes
[00:36.31]On my way to the store to get a pack of smokes
[00:38.80]For my nana, Benson and Hedges 100 with a note from my grandmother
[00:41.74]It's somethin she suffers from arthritis
[00:43.74]Hands stuck together, drop down elbows
[00:46.18]It looked like baseball, she called marshmellows
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[00:48.72]I could see the silho-uettes of the past, hello
[00:51.27]The days back when I had those rain tap windows
[00:53.59]To peer through and just look at the world
[00:55.84]I was just a boy, I never knew what would occur
[00:58.21]Blur ahead to myself as a half-dead fiend
[01:00.84]Fucked up in my head from what happened between
[01:03.09]With my body on the floor I'm asleep from beans
[01:05.59]My life flashed before me, I peeped the scenes
[01:07.89]Yeah, the ghosts talk to me in my head
[01:11.19]They said I'm already dead
[01:13.50]And I had so much blood to be shed
[01:16.06]But I can't spill it no more
[01:18.14]And I have died a thousand deaths
[01:20.92]On the ground so out of breath
[01:23.42]Yeah I've been down that flight of steps
[01:25.79]But you can't kill me no more
[01:27.86]Yeah...
[01:27.93]It's a chain, we all grew up with the same dreams
[01:30.13]But hit the potholes in the street and became fiends
[01:32.49]Got in fist fights every night with the same team
[01:34.99]Right around the time that Jay the Wood came clean
[01:37.42]I was hurt from my broken home and goin crazy
[01:39.80]Rollin up coke in bones and so I maybe
[01:42.36]One these troubled youth in this modern day America
[01:44.74]Thank God I'm still alive, I gotta say it's Erykah
[01:47.30]Who was always by my side, that's why I love her forever
[01:49.86]She knows my whole pain and all the stormy weather
[01:52.05]That I been through, what I overcame and what it meant too
[01:54.73]Other people looked at me like a freak with a pencil
[01:57.11]I got enough rage for every page in my books
[01:59.55]What I done - I should be in a cage with the crooks
[02:02.05]But I'm not, barely by the skin of my teeth
[02:04.24]Maybe there's a reason, time for me to finish this beef
[02:06.67]Yeah, the ghosts talk to me in my head
[02:09.66]They said I'm already dead
[02:12.10]And I had so much blood to be shed
[02:14.82]But I can't spill it no more
[02:17.18]And I have died a thousand deaths
[02:19.54]On the ground so out of breath
[02:21.86]Yeah I've been down that flight of steps
[02:24.36]But you can't kill me no more
[02:26.38]It's the dawn of a new day and I've been given a platform
[02:28.91]All the moments in my life, I got a rap for 'em
[02:31.47]I gotta tell my story, bring it back for 'em
[02:33.84]Either that or I could slip away in the cracks gone
[02:36.21]You think I'd let it happen? Well that's wrong
[02:38.39]Who would've ever thought I would be saved by a rap song?
[02:41.08]I gotta capitalize, cause I'm rappin with guys
[02:43.20]That I idolized as a kid, I'm revitalized
[02:45.14]Always looked at life through a writer's eyes
[02:48.20]I learned this shit is hard, really man you either fight or die
[02:51.01]So I'm a stand up and fight that fight
[02:53.01]I'm goin home broken bone and bloody tonight
[02:55.33]You motherfuckers ever look and study your life
[02:57.82]And see how fade and greyed they've made whatever you like?
[03:00.38]Cause I can feel it in my fuckin gut when I write
[03:02.88]This pain is sweet, I needed to be cut with this knife
[03:05.26]Yeah, the ghosts talk to me in my head
[03:08.20]They said I'm already dead
[03:10.58]And I had so much blood to be shed
[03:13.19]But I can't spill it no more
[03:15.63]And I have died a thousand deaths
[03:18.02]On the ground so out of breath
[03:20.48]Yeah I've been down that flight of steps
[03:22.85]But you can't kill me no more