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I was a big bad man
I picked at you like cotton candy
I talked my talk, made you feel lucky
And broke your heart when I was ready
Yeah, I was a big bad man
And I strummed my slow sad song
I felt your lashes flutter for me
I let my smile spread out sneaky
My chesire cat act sped your heartbeat
And I strummed my slow sad song
And I made my train wreck mess
I sunk to hell and I dragged you with me 
I grieved my way to coke and whiskey
I shamed my father, I scared my family
When I made my train wreck mess
When you'd sleep you sing my name into your pillow
A blue note cast to calm our burning bed
Your helpless heart dreamt my voice rising up to meet you 
And held the plain truth hostage in your head
You see I never raised the ransom 
And I never argued over terms 
I just let you and your song lie there and burn
And now I think long hard thoughts 
About the years I can't return you, 
The truth, it took too long to tell you
There's no excuse for how I did you
When I think my long hard thoughts, 
When I think my long hard thoughts