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Like man was saying, bruv |
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Many nights man prayed, bruv |
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Somewhere someone' s gonna help me through this, man |
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Someone is gonna help bring me out of this , y' know? |
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Time, it took a while for man to recognise, |
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Boy, who you were gonna send |
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And you know what? Mans, I' m very proud |
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I' m very happy to see it' s one of my own init, y' know? |
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And boy, I know none of this is easy, y' know? |
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I' m just proud to be, |
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To be witnessing what' s going on, man, y' know? |
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Look |
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I don' t know where to start |
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But I just done my first psychodrama |
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And I hope the world hears my craft |
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I' m excited man, I pray you get to hear my craft |
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From our childhood, our mother didn' t hear me laugh |
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I' m presenting you the future, I don' t fear my past |
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I ain' t got a tattoo anywhere near my arms |
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But best believe on my sleeves is where I wear my heart |
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Do you know how easy it is to be a sinner? |
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How many losses you need before you can be a winner? |
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Reason with a criminal that needs to eat a dinner |
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Is it survival of the fittest or is he a killer? |
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Losing dad was big, losing you was even bigger |
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Never had a father and I needed you to be the figure |
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We' re forgetting that we had a brother that was even bigger |
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We were figures just tryna figure out who could be a figure |
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My brothers never spoke to each other when I was growing up |
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I remember tryna to build a bridge, I wasn' t old enough |
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I pray I hold the game for as long as you man can hold a grudge |
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Years went by I know it' s , |
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I had to hold it up for mummy on my own |
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I know it' s tough, I got the coldest blood |
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I remember when you got sentenced and I was throwing up |
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It' s like they took a piece of my freedom when I had opened up |
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I just lost the only person that I idolised |
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For my entire life I copied you down to the finest line |
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Bro, I got a flame in my mind I' m trying to firefight |
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The pill I had to swallow wasn' t bitter, it was cyanide |
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I learn over time, separation issues I describe |
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Are probably the reasons that I struggle feeling anything |
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I ain' t got a vision of a marriage or a wedding ring |
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It' s world domination in music or it ain' t anything |
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I' m obsessed, focused on the objective |
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Tell a don yes, disagree, I object |
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Used to treat my women like an object |
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Girls want a monster come and see I' m the Loch Ness |
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Settle for a lot less |
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I just hope you' re proud of me brother, |
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It' s been a long stretch |
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You' re my hero and prior to this, |
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I was living on the edge like a house on a cliff |
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But now I' m living in the present like my house was a gift |
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I' m going psycho, this scene' s mine bro |
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Rappers wanna diss me, it' s only online though |
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They put the mic and soft in the micro |
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Soft? Not I, bro |
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Swimming' s the only time I can lie though |
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And lemme be genuine |
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Anybody rich my age is American, kicking ball or inherited |
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It only makes sense I' m independent knowing |
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Everything it happened how I' m telling it |
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You aren' t getting it |
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I' m coming from the struggle I survived and I' m still here |
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Used to bump trains that' s two ways, I don' t feel fear |
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I don' t know trust, I know a tight bond will tear |
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Like a good wig, I can' t tell you if it' s real here |
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I' m from south London, brother, people getting killed here |
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You can make a mill' |
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But you can lose it if you' re still here |
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I lost over 30 grand to family, I' m still here |
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The word don' t appeal to me, |
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You steal from me I' m still here |
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Bro, I wasn' t made for this |
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I don' t get a break, but I' m aware of what breaking is |
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I wish you could take a hint as well as you can take the piss |
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I don' t even speak to our brother, man, I just pray for him |
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It' s never too late for him |
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Life is at it' s craziness, walls started caving in |
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All the things I' ve seen would turn a theist, atheist |
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I didn' t get 99 marks in English, I was faking it |
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I got 98 ' cause I don' t know what a vacation is |
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If you saw God what would you say to him? |
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If given the chance would you have taken it? |
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If you could rewind time what would you change in it? |
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Do you believe in what an angel is? |
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Furthermore, do you believe in what the devil is? |
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Do you believe that I can illustrate what Streatham is, |
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Then break the fourth wall and base Lesley on my relatives? |
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I' m grateful for my life because I aimed for this |
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Every bad moment every single day of this |
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People looking at me, that' s what fame can bring |
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But to understand the stairs, |
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You take steps then retrace the |
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I tell my circle, the future' s ours, we' re shaping it |
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The past is just the reason I had came to this |
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I thank God for the pain because it made me this |
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I don' t know if you remember those days, bruv |
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In them days, there was one night in particular, bruv |
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Came home and for some reason man put on a beat |
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We were just in the front room, freestyling, bar for bar |
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I don' t even know how old you was these times, bruv |
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Probably about, hmm, ten? Ten, nine? |
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Yeah, man, if I think about it now, |
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Think about the transition |
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Them days there, you had no bars |
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But let' s be real, did anyone, bruv? |
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You know what I mean, it' s called context, bruv |
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But, it was mad fun, bruv |
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But the stuff nowadays today, it' s proper, man |
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You know what I mean, man |
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Thinking man' s definitely blessed to see |
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How the whole thing' s come together |
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From time, I think it was ' JKYL HYD' man, |
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You played man that one there |
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Man was thinking, " Yo, this one here is a banger", bruv |
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I remember when I heard that one live |
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On the airwaves for the first time bruv, we was pumping it |
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Man come to my door was like, |
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" Rah man, that' s a bit loud you know?" |
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I' m like, " Fam, that' s my brudda" |
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He was like, " Yeah?" |
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And you know, on your birthday, man sent you a little card |
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And it begins |
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' Jesse made seven of his sons pass before Samuel, |
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But Samuel said to him, " The Lord has not chosen these." |
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So he asked Jesse, " Are these all the sons you have?" |
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" There is still the youngest," |
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Jesse answered, " but he' s tending the sheep." |
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Samuel said, " Send for him, |
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We will not sit down to eat until he arrives." |
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So he sent and had him brought in. He was ruddy, |
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With a fine appearance and handsome features |
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And then the Lord said, " Rise and anoint him, he' s the one."' |
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Bro, you know what that means? |
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Say no more man |