[00:33.98]The end is far away.
[00:37.15]Not getting too much sleep these days.
[00:44.22]
[00:47.95]These things I can't explain.
[00:51.46]Just wishing for an early grave,
[00:58.21]but they don't understand me.
[01:02.94]
[01:04.19]I wanna be selfish.
[01:13.94]
[01:17.44]Only reason I'm still alive,
[01:20.43]Can't stand to see my mother cry.
[01:24.17]I'll suffer through.
[01:31.16]Only reason I won't die,
[01:34.16]Can't stand the tears in her eyes.
[01:38.09]I'll be home soon.
[01:45.78]The saddest thing is,
[01:49.21]it's the only thing that I want.
[01:52.49]I wonder sometimes why
[01:55.31]I don't just give up and take my life.
[01:59.50]And they have no idea,
[02:02.89]that I'm so close to my dying day.
[02:10.37]There's no coming back from this hell.
[02:25.98]
[03:20.75]I want to be free from this.