[00:00.474]I'm staring out into the vacuum again
[00:05.477]From the back porch of my mind
[00:10.470]The only thing that's alive
[00:15.719]I'm all there is
[00:21.218]And I start attacking my vodka, stab the ice with my straw
[00:26.464]My eyes have turned red as stop-lights
[00:29.472]You seem ready to walk
[00:31.713]You know I'll call you eventually
[00:35.220]When I want to talk
[00:37.483]Until then you're invisible
[00:42.729]Cause there's this switch that gets hit
[00:45.481]And it all stops making sense
[00:48.224]And in the middle of drinks maybe the fifth or the sixth
[00:53.474]I'm completely alone at a table of friends
[00:59.471]I feel nothing for them
[01:01.980]I feel nothing
[01:03.727]Nothing
[01:26.477][01:26.459]
[01:26.963]Well, I need a break from the city again
[01:31.723]I think I'll ship myself back west
[01:36.722]I got a friend there she says, "hey anytime."
[01:47.479]Unless the offer's expired
[01:50.467]I have been less than frequent
[01:52.717]She's under no obligation to indulge every whim
[01:57.967]And I'm so ungrateful, I take, she gives and forgives
[02:03.727]And I keep forgetting it.
[02:09.480]And each morning she wakes with a dream to describe
[02:14.477]Something lovely that bloomed in her beautiful mind
[02:19.976]I said "I'll trade you one for two nightmares of mine
[02:25.728]I have somewhere I die.
[02:28.472]I have somewhere we all die."
[02:50.229]
[03:19.727]I'm thinking of quitting drinking again
[03:24.980]I know I said that a couple of times
[03:29.726]And I'm always changing my mind
[03:35.229]Well, I guess I am
[03:40.713]But there's this burn in my stomach and there's this pain in my side
[03:45.982]And when I kneel at the toilet
[03:49.477]And the morning's clean light pours in through the window
[03:54.714]Sometimes I pray I don't die
[03:56.977]I'm a goddamn hypocrite
[04:02.223]But the night rolls around and it all starts making sense
[04:07.716]There is no right way or wrong way
[04:10.715]You just have to live
[04:13.226]And so I do what I do and at least I exist
[04:18.970]What would mean more than this?
[04:21.719]What would mean more?
[04:23.226]Mean more?