[00:19.620][Intro]
[00:19.770]Ah-em
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[00:20.690][Verse]
[00:20.980]Sometimes I feel like I ain't *******
[00:22.930]Sometimes a ******* feel like *******
[00:25.990]Talkin’ 'bout some real life *******
[00:27.790]Goodbye letter, dear life *******
[00:30.750]So if a ******* kill me, hope he mean it
[00:32.810]I just hope I die for a reason
[00:35.710]They probably won't miss me ’til they need me
[00:37.610]Have problems with admitting that they need me
[00:41.180]Have problems with they man then they need me, Lord
[00:44.250]I'm talkin' 'bout some real life *******
[00:45.090]Goodbye letter, dear life *******
[00:46.000]Way too concerned to be conceited
[00:47.050]I live and I learn, then die tryna teach 'em, Lord
[00:50.600]Die tryna reach 'em
[00:52.260]They care more about how much I leave 'em when I leave it
[00:58.380]I hope I leave more of an impression on my kids to be destined to have blessings to believe in, Lord
[01:01.030]Just got off the phone with my son
[01:02.480]Told him, "You a son of a gun"
[01:04.930]Just got off the phone with my daughter
[01:07.740]Told her, "I won't hesitate to ******* a young ******* up"
[01:09.190]Lord, a few ******* left me
[01:12.090]And only got a new ******* elected
[01:14.540]My old ******* was too disrespectful
[01:17.050]And only give my new ******* respect
[01:18.850]That’s power, yes
[01:21.520]So now we’re next
[01:23.370]Can't lie though, I tried though
[01:25.360]I’l die tryin', that's a common death
[01:28.280]We was such a team, we was chasin' our dreams
[01:31.050]Then it stopped, now I’m outta breath
[01:33.310]Now they try to tell me I need rest and I'l find love again, I ain't find it yet
[01:37.960]Oh, but I guess it is what it is
[01:40.830]As it appears, oh *******
[01:43.040]The object in the mirror is more near than it appears, oh *******
[01:47.910]And sometimes I fear who in the mirror
[01:50.780]That ******* weird
[01:52.830]He done died so many times but still here
[01:55.280]Why am I here? Here
[01:58.350]Life
[02:03.150]What is my meaning? My reason?
[02:10.110]Naked ******* really love ones
[02:11.470]Sometimes our loved ones don't love us
[02:14.730]I'm *******' more than I'm makin' love
[02:16.310]Sometimes I make my rubber wear a rubber
[02:19.420]I just tell my lady, "Nothing's easy"
[02:21.740]Even though I make it look easy
[02:24.180]But understand looks are deceiving
[02:26.480]Lookin' like I'm lookin' for some grievance
[02:28.150]'Cause I been through way too much, don't wanna think about it
[02:29.880]Crank about it, gotta drink about it
[02:30.880]Gotta synchronize it, tranquilize it
[02:32.730]Doctor ain't prescribin' what he ain't realizin'
[02:34.790]Pain inside me got me thinkin' 'bout me
[02:36.290]Tryna hang my body, sanctifyin'
[02:37.880]I'm a gangsta dyin' 'cause all gangsters die
[02:39.380]Can't deny it, you can't take my lion
[02:41.240]I'm a angry lion hangin' by a string
[02:42.750]I can't describe it
[02:44.290]Feel like a anchor tied to my finger
[02:45.550]Got me sinkin' to the bottom of my drink
[02:47.050]I know a lotta *******s think I got a lotta *******s
[02:49.110]There's strength in numbers but there's honor over strength
[02:52.060]I talked to God the other day, he said he got a *******
[02:54.160]So, I look death up in her eye and then I wink
[02:57.330]It's way too real
[02:58.580]The ******* I'm talkin' way way too real
[03:00.230]I hope it gave you chills
[03:01.530]The dirt under your feet could be the grave, you feel
[03:03.190]You don't know how dead you feel until you're dead for real
[03:05.130]Gettin' high after I paid the bill
[03:07.340]Lower than a Navy SEAL
[03:10.770]Show up with them Navy guns
[03:12.210]I hope somebody prayin' for 'em
[03:13.910]Price tag, no mistake, somebody payin' for 'em
[03:16.410]Ice baths, now my face numb, no expression
[03:18.320]What's the life expectancy when you don't expect *******?
[03:20.720]Mama told me, "******* the world and be so aggressive"
[03:23.380]Be so fluorescent, watch these hoes 'cause they so obsessive
[03:25.690]I don't get too high to look over blessings
[03:27.640]Never come in second, make the most of your seconds
[03:29.950]They so precious
[03:31.290]'Cause if we could buy time every store would sell it
[03:32.990]If you want me to read your mind, need correct spelling
[03:35.200]I keep it real, *******s better keep it copacetic
[03:38.050][?]
[03:40.800]Lookin' in the mirror at the one that know me better
[03:42.950]I was too busy to talk, I wrote an open letter
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[03:46.480][Refrain]
[03:46.680]Dear life
[03:51.080]Was is my meaning? My reason?
[03:56.120]That's the question
[04:00.780]I ask the reader
[04:03.390]God bless the reader
[04:06.010]Dear life
[04:10.810]What is my meaning? My reason?
[04:15.820]That's the question
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[04:18.080][Outro: Jacida Carter]
[04:21.350]You know, when he told me Toya was havin' a baby, I say, "Y'all young. You know y'all young." But I said, "Be the best father you can be," you know. And truly, he is that