I still have a dream, a dream that is mine That when this is over, they'll empty my spine Still the sweet smell of burning alive If God prods my liver, I'll let go the line I'm stuck in the trench with the stench of decay and nothing can be what it wasn't today I've not slept in days with my wits going numb Wish she could see what I've become Holding my breath, take my last breath Addicted to this I wouldn't say a word I don't want my children Staggered with hump backs No feeling to wake, not even to die I'm dying for her to ask where I am I'm dying for her, she don't give a damn I'd almost forgotten how rotten skin fails Not even in my death can her beauty pale and she come tear a tear from my eye So call me a coward but how would you fight ? And talk about heaven and days when we danced But down here, Christ, Heaven it can't stand a chance and you make me so sick for murdering Slovik For having no tug of your war You never would listen A surrogate has risen