When all that's good in life comes crashing down 
The pillars crumble with a hellish sound 
I don't know what's going on 
Dumbfound and without a clue 
Is nothing good inside of you? 
I spit my name like a fucking curse 
And damn it all for getting worse 
Someone save me 
From this downward speeding 
Someone help me 
Please stop my soul from bleeding 
I can't deal with reality 
It's nothing but excruciating agony 
I can't deal with my apathy 
It's just in my genes and personality 
A shroud of amphetamine clouds my mind 
A forced solution of the killing kind 
Now I know what's going on 
It's myself destroying me 
There's nothing left there anyway 
I spit my name like a fucking curse 
And damn it all for getting worse 
I don't know what's real or not... 
My brain is nothing but a bowl of snot...